Goodbye

Yesterday we said our goodbye
I saw the worst in your smile
Shattered from hopes and dreams
For this love has not died
Simply torn by your faithfulness.

This broken heart had been aching
Agonized for far too long
Yet it got crushed again last night
It was not the exertion of a devil
It was an angel in the form of YOU.

You’ve abandoned me long ago
I was lost in my own mind map
Wondering if I should find my way back to you
I wanted to be with you
There’s nothing more that I want than to feel you.

Finally I’ve caught up with my world
Realizing what is right and wrong for me
At least that’s what I think
I can no longer see you ‘cause you drifted
Far from sight, far from breathe.

You will always remain the angel in disguise
For you had released me from this black cage
Took my hand, and took me into comfort
I hold on to you tight
Too tight I suffocated you.

Today I am better
Better off without you
At least that’s what I think
Someday you and I will look into each other’s eyes
‘Cause I know you’re somewhere out there.

You and I will no longer exist
I’ll miss the plurality of you and I
No wait,
I’m missing you already…

That Door

Why do you keep looking for that door?
There's nothing left in there,
Only silver dust that fades with the sun.

Stop looking for that door,
There's someone waiting for you in the car,
Get up and get moving,
There's no one behind those doors,
Only suicidal notes from yesterday.

Heart

Rip your shirt off,
Look at the mirror.
And stare at your chest.

Can you see your heart beating?

You can't; Thank God,
Because if you could,
I am afraid to show mine.

And how fast it beats when you hold my hand.

Colors

Apple comes in two colors;
Green and red.

Wine comes in two colors;
White and red.

Your feelings are stuck with two colors too;
White and black.

Even when the world is furnished with thousands of colors;
Why do you choose to wear only two?

Final

If she can't decide
And he is undecided
Let me decide

And my decision is final

FULL STOP

Looking For Tomorrow

Today came and you were gone,
I am sorry I asphyxiated you;
I am blameworthy of your execution.

Yesterday was a blunder,
We shouldn’t have taken the subway,
We should have been more careful.

Tomorrow will be a long journey down the highway,
Wait for me at the end of the crossroad,
I will bring you home again.

If only yesterday wasn’t a mistake,
Today you would be by my side;
And tomorrow your name would be Karla.

Valerie

Dear Valerie,
Hi, how are you doing?
I hope you're doing great
I am far from being fine
But I am certainly through with the pain

Dear Valerie,
You have done it before, haven't you?
How did you feel then?
How do you feel now?
I am composed but I am blameworthy

Dear Valerie,
I anticipate her presence one day
Yes, I left her
But I shall remain here for her
And this time, I won't let her slip away

Dear Valerie,
Thank you for being my patronage
And thank you for not judging me
We are the same, aren't we?
Your blood is red and so is mine

Now Playing, The Song for Life

This is my stage,
These are my audience,
Hail my name,
I will sing you a song.

I keep telling myself “Don’t worry”,
Everything will be okay,
The audience would love me,
I will be a legend.

And when I start singing,
I hear the voices I’ve never heard before,
I looked down at my audience,
They were singing along.

Thank you my audience,
For accepting who I am,
For I am not a great singer,
But only a being like you.

When the curtain falls,
And I took my bow,
With great dignity,
I will continue this path.

For this path has taught me to be strong,
The people who keep judging,
The people who kept questioning,
One day they will succumb to my fight for this life I’ve chosen.

Time

Seconds to minutes
You cling to me
You wanted my heart
And all the feelings I have

Minutes to hours
You kept watch of me
A desperate attempt to hold me
To stop me from falling

Hours to days
You promised to stay
You asked for my hands
To hold and never let go

Time is approaching
I can feel it swift by
My hands will find yours
Embrace me from falling
Bestow shelter to my heart

Keep me close
Keep me safe
And time
Will proof you
That I'll never let go too